Wednesday, August 20, 2008

Enjoy The Ride...

Hey folks it’s been a while since I have been on here. Well a lot has been going on, so I am going to catch ya'll up really quick. I moved into my apartment and I have been in training for my new job as a Resident Assistant. It has been extremely challenging trying to take in all the information but I am sure it will be fine. My only concern is the age gap between me and my residents on my floor, but I am pretty cool as you already know so I’m not to worried…lol. Since this is my last day of training I found a little time to blog. Keep me in your prayers folks this year will be interesting. On to the post now…

Have you ever thought you met the ideal mate, but didn’t want to get too eager about it? Have you ever gotten an opportunity to do something you always wanted, but to afraid to leave your area? If you died today would you feel like you have lived your life to the fullest as much as possible? Do you want to live your life to the fullest?

These types of questions have been running through my mind since the death of Bernie Mac and Isaac Hayes. I really started to think how short life can be. We are always told that by older folks but, I guess it hadn’t really sunk in for me until recently. It made me sit back and look at life in a different light. I am usually a person who is extremely guarded and doesn’t let people in my world. This can often times cause me to miss out on some great individuals. However, life is short and I have determined to live my life to the fullest, so I have to change my mindset. I don’t want to die at a point in my life were I really haven’t lived merely because I was fearful. I mean how can you enjoy life really if you don’t embrace all parts of it? I was talking to someone a few weeks ago, that was advising me to let my guard down when dealing in relationships. We tend to guard our hearts in efforts to save ourselves, but we are just hindering ourselves from growth and moving to the next step. They continued to advise me life is too short to spend all your time protecting your heart and never allowing yourself to love in hopes that the perfect situation will come around. They said to let go and just let things flow naturally without being so guarded. Strangely enough, I am willing to try it. (Wall slowly coming down...)

More often than not, we miss out on opportunities because of fear. Love is a beautiful thing; sometimes it makes you joyful, miserable, irritated, grateful, and baffled. If you can walk, breathe, see, talk, smell, taste, hear, and feel then you are blessed. We are not promised each day we open our eyes. It’s only by the grace of God. I know that if I died today I wouldn’t be happy with the way I have lived life expect for maybe the last few years. Solely, because of the growth I believe I have experienced. I could only look back and say ‘oh it was cool, we had some fun times’ but that is it. The past year I really pushed myself out of my element and I plan on continuing to do that so I can grow. Life is about change, growth, experiences, and having fun. I don’t want to remain the same person, and the only way to grow is to be open and not let fear control me. So from this point on I am going to promote 'living life to the fullest'. That doesn’t mean I am going to be crazy and do outlandish things, but I am going to take chances, embrace new experiences, and let love have it way whenever it comes. Don’t hold back folks, sometimes the scariest decision you make and be the best one and change your life forever.

Life is a trip and then you die, don't let fear hold you back.

Until next time on 'The Journey of Ms. Devereaux'